Panic attack?  

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Really weird story. And it was about a story... huh. So I
turned in a finished draft of a short story to Kevin, with the purpose of fixing major problems so I can turn it in for the Conference. The morning after I turned it in, I woke up having this really absolutely horrible panic
attack - like hyperventilating, crying, shaking, the whole deal. Scared the crap out of me, lol. I went and told Kevin about it... and he laughed and told me I didn't have anything to worry about and that nothing I've done has ever been completely irredeemable, which is nice to hear, but... yeah. I'm still worried about it. It's about these high school kids who build a tree house because they're bored and have run out of zombie-related things to do. It's a little strange. I think it needs more zombies.

I guess I freaked out because it's the first thing I've had a completed draft of in a while... long pieces are easier because you don't have to worry about being finished, I guess. You just don't think about the end until you get close to it. I feel like the panic attack once it's done will be correspondingly larger, though, lol...

We'll see how it goes. Kevin and I are meeting after break to talk about Tree House and also Mothwing, because I turned in more of that too. More news on that later, I guess...

Cadence and Cambiata (two a capella groups, in both of which I am vice president) are getting intense. We're learning all kinds of new music for Cadence and have a concert on March 25 (TWO DAYS BEFORE COMPS UGH) and Cambiata's finally getting rolling after half a semester of planning. It's going to be awesome if we can pull it off... which I think we'll be able to. Catherine's got a lot of new, hard music for us, but all of it's fun and a good bit of it was arranged by herself and Cain. So... should be interesting.

Oh, and I did an interview with the Southern Teachers' Agency. Woo hoo for teaching jobs... I guess.

And that picture is like my favorite thing right now.

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Four Papers and a Funeral  

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Well, here we are, almost to the middle of February and it's only snowed a little bit in Sewanee. My mother tells me that it continues to snow in Jackson, so much so that she and my dad can't go to work.

I'm jealous. They'd never cancel classes for snow in Sewanee... they'd just dig tunnels to the academic buildings so we could go. Ugh.

I've been ridiculously busy for the past couple of weeks. First it was Rush - Formal House, Return House, and Shake Day. Then there was a lot of reading to be done for various classes. Then it was Prom, and Crush Party. And now it's papers. I have a paper due tomorrow (Tuesday), two Thursday (for the same class!!), and one next Tuesday, a week from today. I've finished the one for tomorrow, thankfully - all that's left is proofreading - but I still haven't gotten anything of note done on the rest.

As for the funeral, that's where I stopped in Mothwing late last week before turning it in to Kevin - poor Gideon had to watch his own funeral (can you imagine how awkward that would be? Ick.) I haven't had a chance to go back to it yet, due to all these stupid papers, but I plan on working on it tonight. Kevin has introduced me to a writing program called Ommwriter that I am absolutely in love with - it essentially takes over your whole screen with this nice white picture of some trees in snow and you type in the middle of it and it plays various ambient sounds like ocean waves (my favorite) and it's just awesome. Yep. So go look!

http://www.ommwriter.com

They have a nifty video and everything.

In other news, I have started going to the gym. I know, scary, right? But it's becoming a regular thing since Elizabeth, Jessica, and Kayce all go regularly, and Eliza goes sometimes too. And today I met a man named David Coe while I was on the stationary bike. I accidentally threw my iPod at him and then later he introduced himself because of a book I was reading (The Shadow Rising by Robert Jordan, fourth in his Wheel of Time series). Apparently Mr. Coe also writes fantasy for Tor, Robert Jordan's publisher. I am to read one of his books whenever I finish with Robert Jordan. And I think I will. It was just weird enough of an encounter to make sure I do, eventually, lol.

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And Now I'm Back.  

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Soooo it's been a while. I've had Christmas break - a month at home is a long time. Here is the Sparknotes edition:


Arrived at home - yay good food - Grandparent's Anniversary Party (Mom going INSANE) - Baking frenzy - Drew's new boyfriend Adam yaaaaaay! - fight with idiot ex - SCARIEST MOVIE EVER (Paranormal Activity - I had to sleep with the lights on for days) - sitting at home - Lifetime movies - babysitting - awkward Facebook messages from another ex that I'm still not sure how to interpret - packing up - back to Sewanee!

And so there was my break. And now I'm back at Sewanee, and we had our first day of class today. My schedule is incredible - somehow I've managed to only have Tuesday/Thursday classes and therefore a FOUR-DAY WEEKEND. Yes. It's awesome.

It's nice to be back on the mountain - I'm in a much better place than I was when I left. I'm writing again, which is fabulous and wonderful and amazing - a new project tentatively titled Mothwing. And I'm reading a ton of good things for classes and for fun. I'm generally a lot happier right now, though that could go downhill quickly since I'm comping this semester - ugh. (For those of you who don't go to Sewanee or another school who does this, comping = comprehensive exams = everything you've ever learned for your major and some stuff you haven't. It sucks.)

I still haven't a clue what I'm going to do after graduation, but I figure that'll come to me at some point. I'm thinking about teaching at a private school. Maybe. Or I might be flipping burgers at McDonald's for the rest of my life. Or living in a box under the bridge, as was my original plan.

This one is kind of ramble-y. I don't have a lot to say, because I haven't done much since being back, and there wasn't much of break worth commentary unless you count all that drama, and I really don't want to rant about that on the internet. So yeah. Good times.

Also, I found this funny little picture of Shakespeare and it made me really happy.

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